Hi, My Name is Debbie & I'm Accident Prone

Earlier last month I moved in with my friend Kaysee. We're trying to find me a job and us a house to rent so that we won't have to deal with the parental eye.

okay so story time right?

I'm out and about like usual late on a Saturday night and my best friend calls me and asks me for a ride. I say "sure, where are you? "

"I'm in Vegas, I'm stranded, will you come get me please? I have 40 dollars for gas, please, I have no other way."

"omg, of course I will come get you!"

yes, I did, I gave in, and I went to Vegas to get my friend. However, halfway there, I'm approaching Kramer Junction, and I see a semi in front of me. I think to myself, "NO WAY am I getting stuck behind a semi for 40 miles (or however long that stretch is)" so i decide to pass at the light. Yes, I am aware that the right lane is NOT a passing lane, but I HAVE passed there before, just not at 230AM, when it's completely pitch-black.
So, as I'm passing, I realize there isn't enough road to pass and hit dirt. I don't slow down, there is no time, but my car starts to drift towards the semi. So, being the so smart person I am, I over-correct and slam the brakes. My car slows, turns, and an oncoming semi smashes my little Scion to pieces. Needless to say, the bumper i had recently gotten repaired was left behind at the scene.

I get out of the car, cry , cry, cry, and say over and over again, "I should have died cause my dad's going to slaughter me anyway!" The driver of the semi lets me go, because I was hysterical and didn't want to wait 2 hours for the cops, and i drive my piece back home with no back end, basically.

the next day, my friend (who mysteriously found a ride home in the morning), calls me to go to a movie, without asking all the pressing questions like: how am I?, is my car okay?, did I get into trouble?, is my car totaled?, how am i going to get around?, will my insurance cover it?, am I going to have to get a new car?, etc.

I was at Rockin' Roots, so I didn't really talk to her, but I was angry that it seemed like she didn't care, and didn't even say "OMG I'm so sorry."

Needless to say, she decided on her own to not be friends with me anymore because I wanted time to recoop and re-evaluate. She decided to do it for me and cut me out.

I had to return my rental yesterday and being without a car sucks. Plus, it's hot here in Bakes, and riding the bus and/or a bike is NO BUENO.

Rides, anyone?

(Me and Kaysee at Rockin' Roots '09)

what can I say?

sooooooo I go to a friend's house last night
and right after all my friends leave, I go into another room for a few minutes, and while I'm outof sight, a few girls decided it would be cool to go through my purse.
They ended up taking my camera and my new phone.
then they dumped my wallet (which didn't have any money in it anyway, or credit cards) and placed my purse inside the BBQ outside, and then left.
I go back outside, thinking I need to check my phone, and my entire purse is gone and nowhere to be found. I end up having to stay the night and try to find a way to get a hold of someone with a car that can pick me up and take me to my house to get the spare key, the whole time bawling about how mean people are and wondering what it was that I did to deserve this kind of retribution.
Later, as my friend is cleaning outside, he finds my purse and thankfully my keys were inside, along with everything but the phone & camera.
So... people are mean
and this is the 2nd time this year my phone has been stolen. and I didn't even have it out a whole lot and I didn't leave it lying around on its own, btu I was still pretty dumb for leaving my purse lying around people that I didn't know very well, even if some of my friends were around. So, my bad. But hopefully somehow karma will pay them back or we'll find out who it is cause that phone isnt super popular AND there are ways I can tell it's mine if it ever turns up.
until then, I feel completely cut off from the world.

You Give a Little Love...

so pretty much, here's what's been going on...

after my blackberry was stolen (sad face) i was fortunate enough to have a friend who gave me her old T-Mobile Gravity. After calling in to customer service and using Nellie's name, I was able to get the code needed to unlock the phone so I could use my AT&T SIM card inside the T-Mobile phone. I love having a full keyboard again but still miss my Blackberry. (sad face)


Where we go...

The Firehouse is an AWESOME new bar//grill//poolhall that we have been going to quite regularly... the food is great and the poolhall is HUGE

I absolutely love the atmosphere of this new restaurant!

Totally kicked butt at pool

Yay! Eva drove to MY SIDE and went out with ussss

Surprise Birthday Party at Nickieeeeeee's for Danielle... she had NO IDEA

Happy Birthday to Nellie!!!!- April 13

and here's a little anecdote that reminded me that there are still good people in the world....

This morning I stopped at Chevron to get gas on my way to take Nellie home, and I went inside with my $1.95 for just enough gas to take Nells home and come back. I knew later today I would be getting the gas card from the pops so I wasn't stressin too much on gas but I didn't have enough this morning. Anyway, when I go in to pay, I just so happen to get the super nice employee who is always friendly and nice and always a pleasure to be served by. I hgave him my $1.95 and asked him to put it on pump 8. He says "sure thing" and I go out to pump the less than 1 gallon I paid for. As I am pumping, however, I'm watching the total sale go up...and up...and up. As soon as it passed $2.00, I was skeptical, thinking, "wait, I only paid for $1.95, what's going on?" The total went up to $5.00, and a little smile crept over my face, because I knew that the employee had give me the extra $3.00, and for no particular reason except he's a nice guy. It almost made me cry to know that there are still good people in the world, and that for once, Karma's giving me a little something in return for everything that I try to do.

Do good things, and good things happen. Thanks, Chevron man. :)

Sad Day

The last 6 months have been just one thing after another.
among other things....
I lost my job and my boyfriend
diagnosed with depression
my car was keyed
got in a fight with one of my best friends & we didnt talk for like 3 weeks
I got rear-ended & had to go to the hospital
My phone was stolen
i just don't really know what to say anymore you know?
I don't really want a pity party or anything but still
I always felt like I was a good person
so why does karma keep slapping me in the face?

BASSH

Last weekend I went to Santa Barbara with my friends Kaysee and Haylee for Kaysee's dance team show at BASSH.

It was a lot of fun walking alone State St. seeing all the crazy characters and watching her amazing hip-hop skills at the actual show.
we stayed for 2 days, shopped, went to the beach, and Kaysee & Haylee got tattoos that turned out pretty awesome. I slept through that ordeal, mostly because I was informed that I am allowed to get a tattoo.... the day before I move out.

New Years/Birthday

I never ever thought that I could make someone so angry at me that they would retaliate in such a juvenile way. But yes, I have accomplished the impossible: my car got keyed on New Year's Eve simply because I didn't want to hang out with someone anymore. I guess that's what happens when you get drunk at 5pm on New Year's Eve; people don't want to be around you and you make a fool out of yourself. She called me and wanted to hang out. I said no, I really don't want to anymore.... and she got very upset, rode her bike to my house, and proceeded to try to get me to come outside and fight her. I laughed it off, said no, stayed inside, and while I was inside having a very casual and good New Years with my best friend Nellie and my brother Matt, she was outside keying my car. How rude.

Close up on the marks... my brother said "Oh, good, she left her signature!"

A few days later, I was laying in bed with Nells beside me and just wanted very much to go to LA. We called Eva and then an hour later we were on our way to Venice Beach (again!!)

We walked down the strip, went to the sand, watched the ocean for a little bit, ate dinner with Eva's friend, and then visited my 2 good friends Conner and Miguel. It was a very fun, relaxing day - the perfect prelude to my oh-so-exciting 21st birthday.

On the 19th I turned 21!!! Even though the day was good, the night was lame, but it's okay. I got to spend my birthday with the people that really care about me and that was enough. Kaysee

and I hot tubbed and then me and Nellie

hung out with Eva

and then went over to my buddy Nick's house

and kicked it there. My bday was great. I got what I wanted (wow mom and dad actually listened!!!) and in addition, I got some cash and of course, See's candy.

On Wednesday the 21st I started school!! I am taking 15 units, and that includes College Orchestra on Thursdays. Our first concert is on March 5 at 7pm at Highland high School. I am super excited to get back into the groove when in comes to playing my violin. :)

Home again

I'm back in Bakes and regret not taking ANY photos with family whatsoever. I guess I just wasn't in the mood. I did get a haircut and some new clothes... very therapeutic.


My hair is slightly shorter, and that's a new jacket. :)

Anyway, I'm still looking for a job. slowly.

Also, this is how my burn healed for those interested..

Pink scars fade easy peasy.

Here's some interesting news...

I recieved a letter from the IRS this week... I was looking forward to recieving a check and instead, I apparantly owe the government $17,000.00 - and I'm not joking. Oh, with interest, it's something like $17,039.00, but close enough. Wow. I'll get this mistake fixed for sure. I didn't even make that much last year, and I want my tax return!

peace easy.

Vaca

So Sunday night I decided that I really needed to get out of Bakes and clear my head.
I went to Utah.

I am currently staying in my brother's spare room, visiting family, and trying to feel better.
I'll be back in Bakes Sunday night, but I'm not sure if I'll be any better, we will just have to see.

This is much harder than I ever thought it would be.
:(

Update

Ok, so I've been a slacker.
Sorry.


Here's the skinny...

A couple months ago I was making spaghetti [[it was delicious, of course]]. However, when I went to pour the noodles into the colander, I tipped the pot the wrong way and the water splashed up onto my stomach - OUCH. I immediately put the pot aside and ran out to my pool... which I stayed in for about 40 seconds... it made the burn feel better but the rest of my body was freezing. I didn't cry - not for a couple of weeks, when it started to ... ooze?

This photo is about 3 weeks after the fact... yeah it hurt really badly. :(


Now, its just a pink scar that I'm sure will fade. But it was pretty angry for a while - I couldn't even work very much and had to take some painkillers to make it feel better.

In September, I went to the beach with my buddy Eva for the day... it was the most relaxing day of my life.


Halloween was terrible. I HATE Halloween. It's just an excuse to look like a slut and not get made fun of... except I always make fun of the "sexy nurse" and the "sexy ... whatever"

Ran into some friends over that weekend, though.

Shay is a Pageant Girl, I'm pretty sure she won Miss Bakersfield. She's pretty sweet.

Other than that, not a whole lot. I saw WAY to many Jokers over Halloween weekend... I really really dislike faces painted like clowns. You never know what their real expression is. !

Still looking for a job.
peace easy.

The One and Only Prop I Actually Care About

I normally don't care about politics, and I did not vote, but I thought it was important to highlight certain aspects of this statement. Whether you are affiliated with the church or not, I personally believe that people should keep an open mind.

Since Proposition 8 was placed on the ballot in June of this year, the citizens of California have considered the arguments for and against same-sex marriage. After extensive debate between those of different persuasions, voters have chosen to amend the California State Constitution to state that marriage should be between a man and a woman.
Voters in Arizona and Florida took the same course and amended their constitutions to establish that marriage will continue to be between a man and a woman.Such an emotionally charged issue concerning the most personal and cherished aspects of life — family, identity, intimacy and equality — stirs fervent and deep feelings. Most likely, the election results for these constitutional amendments will not mean an end to the debate over same-sex marriage in this country.
We hope that now and in the future all parties involved in this issue will be well informed and act in a spirit of mutual respect and civility toward those with a different position. No one on any side of the question should be vilified, intimidated, harassed or subject to erroneous information.
It is important to understand that this issue for the Church has always been about the sacred and divine institution of marriage — a union between a man and a woman. Allegations of bigotry or persecution made against the Church were and are simply wrong.
The Church’s opposition to same-sex marriage neither constitutes nor condones any kind of hostility toward gays and lesbians. Even more, the Church does not object to rights for same-sex couples regarding hospitalization and medical care, fair housing and employment rights, or probate rights, so long as these do not infringe on the integrity of the traditional family or the constitutional rights of churches.
Some, however, have mistakenly asserted that churches should not ever be involved in politics when moral issues are involved. In fact, churches and religious organizations are well within their constitutional rights to speak out and be engaged in the many moral and ethical problems facing society. While the Church does not endorse candidates or platforms, it does reserve the right to speak out on important issues.
Before it accepted the invitation to join broad-based coalitions for the amendments, the Church knew that some of its members would choose not to support its position. Voting choices by Latter-day Saints, like all other people, are influenced by their own unique experiences and circumstances. As we move forward from the election, Church members need to be understanding and accepting of each other and work together for a better society.Even though the democratic process can be demanding and difficult, Latter-day Saints are profoundly grateful for and respect the ideals of a true democracy.
The Church expresses deep appreciation for the hard work and dedication of the many Latter-day Saints and others who supported the coalitions in efforts regarding these amendments.

(lds.org)

sad

I lost my job this past sunday.

I broke up with my boyfriend this past tuesday.


what a sad week.

starting the job search monday.

won't be starting the boy search for quite a while.
just an update.
hope you are better than I am. "/

happy

I went to the beach this past Tuesday and it was really the most relaxing day I've ever had at the beach...
I don't really like going to the beach in the firstplace, b/c of sticky sea water and messed up hair and sand all over, but me and my friend Eva just laid on the beach and tanned and talked and chilled and it really was the best time I've had at the beach ever.

To make things only better, for about a month now I've been dating someone and it has come to my attention that I seem happy right now. I am, this guy is good to me and very easy for me to talk to. I'm not exactly sure how long this will last, but I do like how things are going and hope they stay this way for a long time. I'm mostly very happy to not be alone anymore. :)

Not doing much else except hanging with Eva and seeing this boy, so there's not much to say. Hope everyone is doing great.

not much

not much has changed in the past month...
I'm still working at Jamba, getting a few more hours lately.
School started but I procrastinated so much that I didn't fix things in time. I know I'm retarded, I know I know I need to be in school... just call me an idiot and move on.
Went to the beach with some friends last weekend, it was a lot of fun.
Other than that, just hanging out.

Better Days

Ok so the whole boy thing (of course) worked out okay. Like I said, I knew it would get better, it would just take a while. It's just sad, boy leaves tomorrow. "/
Work is so dumb right now. I get no slack at all. No leinency, nothing. It's like they expect me to be perfect at all times, 100% there, always super peppy, super excited about all!things!jamba!
I understand why, but do we get any kind of second chance? Usually no. I know I've been there for over a year, but it seems liek they forget I've only been a lead for a month. It's very different than a TM.
Whatever, it will get better too. I just don't konw what I'm going to do with all the time I have on my hands now that evveryone is moving away. "/

Just Thinkin

It seems the boys that actually care about me are the ones I could do without or I'm "just not that into". But the ones that couldn't care any less about me or what's going on in my life are the ones I want to call all the time... I end up being "that girl" - you know, the one who won't leave them alone. Just like I have boys that are "that boy" - the one who won't get the hint. I guess it's karma paying me back for being such a butthead to people by ignoring calls and not calling back.But at least I don't pretend like we'll hang out and then bail. I always have legitimate reasons as to why I can't hang out or won't hang out. I'm only halfway mean. I know I do this to myself and I feel bad for those boys who care and want to be in my life...but I'd feel worse if I pretended to like them the way that boys pretend to like me.I don't think this makes any sense, but I just wanted to say something about the situation I've put myself in. It's my own fault that I grew attatched to basically a stranger, but it just confirms everything I believed about what boys want and what boys like when I was in highschool and all the rumors are true and all boys want one thing and call you a tease when you're just not having it.
so... to all those who want to tell me that I'm better off, we all know that's just a line that never makes you feel better anyway. I'm just pissed right now, and I'm very frustrated and I'm sorry I'm a tease boy.
now I feel like a silly girl. I just wish that things had turned out the way i knew they could have 6 months ago when i was dreaming about someone who turned out to be nothing like I thought, and I wish that some people would just waste their time with me since they are leaving town soon anyway.
But who wants a tease?

Other than this whole stupid boy thing, everything is fine. I'm still wondering why my account at BC is all messed up since I paid my fine, and I have to reg. for classes, so I guess that means I have to actually go down there and/or call and see what the deal is.
I've been working less at Jamba, they're trying to basically scare anyone who isn't "all about Jamba" out of a job. So I actually have to care. Hmmm. I'm thinking I'd rather have a sense of job security. "/

Anyway, my camera magically fixed itself!!!! I turned it one today and it was perfect, I was so happy! Of course, I took some photos just to prove it wasn't broken anymore. Good thing I didn't pay for it to get fixed or get a new one. Cross your fingers for me, hope it stays fixed. I guess it just needed a break.

I'm not sure who reads this, but for whoever does, I don't care to elaborate on the beginning. It's just thoughts and yes I know things will improve. Sometimes you need to vent, and I don't really have the "best friend" anymore to vent to. "/

For those interested...

One year ago

Today

Big Meadow!

So on Thursday (the 3rd) I went camping with my family at wonderful Big Meadow!! It was so nice to get away from town and be in my element. I absolutely ADORE that place and wish I could live there, or wish I could stay there for weeks at a time. I'm thinking about going up there on my own or with some friends to chill. Driving my car, it doesn't cost very much to drive up, and I really need more than one vaca this summer.

But I digress.

Matt came up for the first time in 3 years and we brought his gf Lauren, too!! I (of course) gave her the grand tour....

Matt, Spencer, Me, and Leslie in front of Bog Meadow forever ago.

Me under the Spring, a pipe just stuck in the mountain.
Rock Mountain

Celebrate

When I told my dad I was getting promoted, he told me he would take me out to eat to celebrate.

I held him to that promise and we went to Famous Dave's... it was so good!!

This is Me, Matt, and Lauren

Me and Mateo
The first photo that Me and Lauren have ever taken together.. only took about a year to get it.

Leslie and Me, she's here for the summer.

Family Blog

For those interested...
http://www.the-austin-family.blogspot.com/

Just basically an online version of The Austin Gazette, which I haven't gotten around to publishing for quite a while. We decided the paper format is an annual (meaning every two years) thing.
Enjoy.

Finally!!

Today I had my Lead Class to be promoted!!! My pay raise will officially go through on the 18th, and until then I'llbe running practice shifts as a Manager in Charge!! I'm so happy that this finally happened, and only hope I can do the job as well I think I can.

Not much else is going on, I'm not in school this summer, so I'm totally free when I'm not working, which is nice to be able to sleep and to just plain relax.

I'm working on getting a routine of at least playing tennis at the ball wall, so let's see how I do with that.

In a couple of weeks I'll be playing in a little group of people at some church thing, and today I pulled out my violin for the first time since christmas... my arm was really sore when I was done practicing (which I usually never do!) but I was glad that I got the hang of how the songs were supposed to sound, usually I need someone who already knows the piece to be playing alongside me and show me how it's done.. so yay me.

Anyway, here is a current photo of me for those interested... have a nice week!

Work Out//No Use

ok so recently more than one person has told me that I don't have any upper-body strength due to lack of muscles in my arms.

So I played tennis today at the ball wall over at Jastro Park and my arm is sore but I'm proud of myself for still having some kind of form when it comes to tennis. I haven't played in months and months, not since like last summer. But today was perfect, the weather could not have been more agreeable, and I really needed something productive to do.

So, to anyone in Bakes who wants to play, now that I'm not in school, I'm down anytime I'm not working. Leslie & Keith play, too, let's make it a doubles tourney. ;)

Also, Can I just say how much I absolutely LOVE No Use's new album: "The Feel Good Record of the Year"??

My brother dl it for me and the only problem I have with listening to it is I can't sing along yet b/c I don't know the words. I love how they've reverted back to their old sound, the first few are more like Making Friends, one of their old albums. Then they go on to give you surprise after surprise. I love this album, it's going to be in my CD player for quite a while. :)