Leaving

Currently Listening to: "There For You" by Flyleaf (Her song to me? It should be.)
<-- Matt, Me, Leslie, and Spencer at Big Meadow circa 1994... ish. They've moved the sign since then.

So tomorrow I leave for Utah!! I was supposed to be already on the road today, but I have this stupid library workshop that I have to go to for my english class at 3:10 pm. How lame. I could have been already on my way.

The Double J 368 (Marketplace)
Work was long today. We just launched this new breakfast campaign with chunky yogurt blend smoothies with granola and eight new baked goods. It wasn't busy, so time passed slowly. I'm excited about our new stuff. Later this year we're getting ovens and we'll be serving hot=pocket type breakfast sandwiches.

Renegade (BC)
School today at 3... but only for an hour. Then I get to come home and pack, clean my carpet, wash my sheets, make my bed, and get everything ready so I can just drive straight through without stopping except for gas tomorrow. I better download some new stuff.

Good Day?
So far, it's been a good week if you count Saturday. I went to Institute last night, chatted a little with Jesse, then went to work to help set up the menuboard. Brother Williams is an exceptional teacher, and even though he talked about marriage and love, I forgive him. I'm excited to go every week!

Anyway, that's all, just wanted to update a little. I know, it's so exciting.
just do it with love. love. love. love.

Good day

Currently Listening to: "All The Best Songs" by No Use For A Name
<-- my hair was effing CRAZY last night.. Lauren did a faux hawk for me haha. We went to Capistranos for my brother Matt's birthday dinner. His birthday is tomorrow and he's turning 25.

Today.... Wow for the first time in a long time I had a really truly genuinely good day.

The Double J 368 (Marketplace)
Work was superfun, I opened with Berto for the first time and our open was fast and quick and just chillaxed... I loved it! our morning krew was really fun too... i just had a good time for once. Even though our computers were down, Berto made it not a big deal and we weren't all stressed about it like we can be sometimes. The music was awesome today too haha.

Renegades (BC)
I'm pretty sure I bombed my English test on Wednesday considering I didn't read the book. oops.

Good Day?
heck yes it was. After work I came home to find that Jason was still in town. My brother went to work but Jason stayed behind and hung out with me for a few hours. Ahh it was just so great to be able to hang out with a friend and just do nothing. I made him some food and he took off because he had to drive back hom but it was a very good day for me.


I hope more days like this come around.

The Lowdown

Good times, for sure for sure.
Hung out with Jason last night - that was pretty sweeeeet. I appreciate the comfortable atmosphere that I don't always have around boys who spark my interest. Usually I get nervous or just don't know what to sayor don't want to look even more stupid or something, but with some people, the idea that probably nothing will happen makes it easy to let my insecurities go. Last night was great... and so was LOST!!!


In other news...
I really don't know what she expects me to say or do.
I really don't.
I thought people would know by now I'm not the kind of preson who forgets how she was treated. Or forgives that behavior a year later. It's not like I'm holding a grudge or anything, because I'm not, I'm just saying that just because time has passed doesn't meant that either of us has changed enough. Maybe it was all in my head, but that doesn't mean that the blame should have been placed on me when I tried to work it out. Nothing has changed. I don't think it will ever be good again. And I hope that this doesn't start some like spiritual awakening or something because the last thing I need is to be preached to.
random.

oh well. Life is lemons, man.




kind of want some lemonade...