Better Days

Ok so the whole boy thing (of course) worked out okay. Like I said, I knew it would get better, it would just take a while. It's just sad, boy leaves tomorrow. "/
Work is so dumb right now. I get no slack at all. No leinency, nothing. It's like they expect me to be perfect at all times, 100% there, always super peppy, super excited about all!things!jamba!
I understand why, but do we get any kind of second chance? Usually no. I know I've been there for over a year, but it seems liek they forget I've only been a lead for a month. It's very different than a TM.
Whatever, it will get better too. I just don't konw what I'm going to do with all the time I have on my hands now that evveryone is moving away. "/

Just Thinkin

It seems the boys that actually care about me are the ones I could do without or I'm "just not that into". But the ones that couldn't care any less about me or what's going on in my life are the ones I want to call all the time... I end up being "that girl" - you know, the one who won't leave them alone. Just like I have boys that are "that boy" - the one who won't get the hint. I guess it's karma paying me back for being such a butthead to people by ignoring calls and not calling back.But at least I don't pretend like we'll hang out and then bail. I always have legitimate reasons as to why I can't hang out or won't hang out. I'm only halfway mean. I know I do this to myself and I feel bad for those boys who care and want to be in my life...but I'd feel worse if I pretended to like them the way that boys pretend to like me.I don't think this makes any sense, but I just wanted to say something about the situation I've put myself in. It's my own fault that I grew attatched to basically a stranger, but it just confirms everything I believed about what boys want and what boys like when I was in highschool and all the rumors are true and all boys want one thing and call you a tease when you're just not having it.
so... to all those who want to tell me that I'm better off, we all know that's just a line that never makes you feel better anyway. I'm just pissed right now, and I'm very frustrated and I'm sorry I'm a tease boy.
now I feel like a silly girl. I just wish that things had turned out the way i knew they could have 6 months ago when i was dreaming about someone who turned out to be nothing like I thought, and I wish that some people would just waste their time with me since they are leaving town soon anyway.
But who wants a tease?

Other than this whole stupid boy thing, everything is fine. I'm still wondering why my account at BC is all messed up since I paid my fine, and I have to reg. for classes, so I guess that means I have to actually go down there and/or call and see what the deal is.
I've been working less at Jamba, they're trying to basically scare anyone who isn't "all about Jamba" out of a job. So I actually have to care. Hmmm. I'm thinking I'd rather have a sense of job security. "/

Anyway, my camera magically fixed itself!!!! I turned it one today and it was perfect, I was so happy! Of course, I took some photos just to prove it wasn't broken anymore. Good thing I didn't pay for it to get fixed or get a new one. Cross your fingers for me, hope it stays fixed. I guess it just needed a break.

I'm not sure who reads this, but for whoever does, I don't care to elaborate on the beginning. It's just thoughts and yes I know things will improve. Sometimes you need to vent, and I don't really have the "best friend" anymore to vent to. "/

For those interested...

One year ago

Today

Big Meadow!

So on Thursday (the 3rd) I went camping with my family at wonderful Big Meadow!! It was so nice to get away from town and be in my element. I absolutely ADORE that place and wish I could live there, or wish I could stay there for weeks at a time. I'm thinking about going up there on my own or with some friends to chill. Driving my car, it doesn't cost very much to drive up, and I really need more than one vaca this summer.

But I digress.

Matt came up for the first time in 3 years and we brought his gf Lauren, too!! I (of course) gave her the grand tour....

Matt, Spencer, Me, and Leslie in front of Bog Meadow forever ago.

Me under the Spring, a pipe just stuck in the mountain.
Rock Mountain