Leaving

Currently Listening to: "There For You" by Flyleaf (Her song to me? It should be.)
<-- Matt, Me, Leslie, and Spencer at Big Meadow circa 1994... ish. They've moved the sign since then.

So tomorrow I leave for Utah!! I was supposed to be already on the road today, but I have this stupid library workshop that I have to go to for my english class at 3:10 pm. How lame. I could have been already on my way.

The Double J 368 (Marketplace)
Work was long today. We just launched this new breakfast campaign with chunky yogurt blend smoothies with granola and eight new baked goods. It wasn't busy, so time passed slowly. I'm excited about our new stuff. Later this year we're getting ovens and we'll be serving hot=pocket type breakfast sandwiches.

Renegade (BC)
School today at 3... but only for an hour. Then I get to come home and pack, clean my carpet, wash my sheets, make my bed, and get everything ready so I can just drive straight through without stopping except for gas tomorrow. I better download some new stuff.

Good Day?
So far, it's been a good week if you count Saturday. I went to Institute last night, chatted a little with Jesse, then went to work to help set up the menuboard. Brother Williams is an exceptional teacher, and even though he talked about marriage and love, I forgive him. I'm excited to go every week!

Anyway, that's all, just wanted to update a little. I know, it's so exciting.
just do it with love. love. love. love.

Good day

Currently Listening to: "All The Best Songs" by No Use For A Name
<-- my hair was effing CRAZY last night.. Lauren did a faux hawk for me haha. We went to Capistranos for my brother Matt's birthday dinner. His birthday is tomorrow and he's turning 25.

Today.... Wow for the first time in a long time I had a really truly genuinely good day.

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Work was superfun, I opened with Berto for the first time and our open was fast and quick and just chillaxed... I loved it! our morning krew was really fun too... i just had a good time for once. Even though our computers were down, Berto made it not a big deal and we weren't all stressed about it like we can be sometimes. The music was awesome today too haha.

Renegades (BC)
I'm pretty sure I bombed my English test on Wednesday considering I didn't read the book. oops.

Good Day?
heck yes it was. After work I came home to find that Jason was still in town. My brother went to work but Jason stayed behind and hung out with me for a few hours. Ahh it was just so great to be able to hang out with a friend and just do nothing. I made him some food and he took off because he had to drive back hom but it was a very good day for me.


I hope more days like this come around.

The Lowdown

Good times, for sure for sure.
Hung out with Jason last night - that was pretty sweeeeet. I appreciate the comfortable atmosphere that I don't always have around boys who spark my interest. Usually I get nervous or just don't know what to sayor don't want to look even more stupid or something, but with some people, the idea that probably nothing will happen makes it easy to let my insecurities go. Last night was great... and so was LOST!!!


In other news...
I really don't know what she expects me to say or do.
I really don't.
I thought people would know by now I'm not the kind of preson who forgets how she was treated. Or forgives that behavior a year later. It's not like I'm holding a grudge or anything, because I'm not, I'm just saying that just because time has passed doesn't meant that either of us has changed enough. Maybe it was all in my head, but that doesn't mean that the blame should have been placed on me when I tried to work it out. Nothing has changed. I don't think it will ever be good again. And I hope that this doesn't start some like spiritual awakening or something because the last thing I need is to be preached to.
random.

oh well. Life is lemons, man.




kind of want some lemonade...

Rundown

Currently Listening to: "so long, astoria" by The Ataris

<-- Macey's uniform (approx. Feb. 2007) Oh em gee. It's been a busy few days even without school. I feel like I've been all over the place. Currently I'm trying to make plans with Courtney to make sure she's coming down in March when Grayson comes home. It's a big mess but I'm confident it will all work out. I'm also trying to get everything to together so that I can go to Utah on the 28th. My boss Chyron from Macey's is getting married!! I'm going up on Thursday the 28th after work, going to Salt Lake on Friday to hang with Courtney, then on staurday is her reception. I drive back on Sunday, the 2nd. Busy weekend for sure.

Double J 368 (Marketplace)
Work was so busy yesterday. I was scheduled from 5:30 am to 12 pm but it was so busy I didn't get out until 2pm. It's great because that way I actually got a full eight hours. I love it when it's busy because time goes by really fast and you kind of get "in the mode" when it's busy, you're working your one area and getting a rhythm down... pretty sweet. I got paid today, wahoo. I'm saving most of it for my trip to Utah... I'm hoping to pick up a shift while I'm there so I don't lose too many hours.
My promotion to Team Leader has been pushed back... a couple of months more and it will happen.


Renegade (BC)
So I'm supposed to be reading Fahrenheit 451 and I have a quiz on it tomorrow... oops, I haven't bought the book yet because of lack of funds. Can you guess who's reading sparknotes tonight? But other than that, I already did my math homework in class. It's so effing easy peasy.


Good Day?
Yessa today I'm going swimming at McMurtrey with West. I'm very excited but nervous that I'm not in swimming shape. oops. I think it will be fun, I always loved swimming in highschool. I just wish Father Jim would let me dive again, that would be so awesome. But he doesn't like me enough. "/ If I were Olympic material like Sam, he for sure would, but I'm not that awesome. I miss diving.
By the way, I finally gave my dogs a bath, and not soon enough, I think they had fleas. I was pretty itchy on Friday.
Yesterday I went to Rosemary's..... mmmm. Everyone was going to a movie but I didn't go, I had work too early. I was falling asleep on my way home. It's like an internal alarm clock telling me it's nine or ten at night. I used to make fun of Courtney because she would do that... guess that's my bad.


I'm tired. And there's nothing else.

Busy

Currently Listening to: "No, Really, I'm Fine" by The Spill Canvas
Right now my life has been very busy. It's been really hard to get used to after only just working all the time. Now that I'm going to BC two nights a week, I find it so much easier to fall asleep no matter where I am (even driving...oops). I never took naps because I'd get bored before I fell asleep, but now that my schedule is more full, naps are welcome. I'm also Branch Music Coordinator for the Kern River Branch, and even though it's not that hard, it's still something I'm constantly thinking about, trying to remember to call people (which I hate to do) and tell them their assignments. It makes me laugh sometimes to think I was ever a telemarketer, but I was.


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I usually go to work around 5:30 am. Right now I'm a Training Mentor, which is one step above Team Member. Soon I'll be promoted to Team Leader and recieve another raise and more responsibility. Recently the store has been pretty busy in the afternoons after I leave because the weather has been so favorable, but in the mornings we have a core group of "regulars" who come in every day. Other than that, we can for almost an hour without anyone coming in. Gives me time to do the daily sudoku in the paper. Wahoo. I'm getting pretty awesome at that game.

Renegade (BC)
After work I go straight to school from 1pm to somewhere around 8 or 8:30 pm. I'm taking English B1A, Math D (Intermediate Algebra), and Physical Geography. My English professor told me on Monday that I was the only one who didn't have to re-write my diagnostic essay and that she's looking forward to reading what I write this semester. (yay!) My Math class is way easy, and my professor's lectures are so all-over-the-place that I end up doing my homework while she's talking. Physical Geography is way interesting but a lot of memorization and I've always been bad at studying. "/

After school, if I get out early enough, I head to McMurtrey Aquatic and swim with the West High swim team. If not, I go home and eat some delicious soup and sit down for some much-needed downtime.

Good Day?
Today was Valentine's Day, and I was not a happy camper. I was late for my eye appointment because I (of course) fell asleep. Even though I actually had a day off for once in my life, I still had so many other things I wanted to do that didn't seem to get done. But I did make sugar cookies for my brother and his girlfriend, Lauren. They were extra delicious. But other than that, with my parents being in Park City, UT skiing, I was alone all day. It was hard.

Since I was supposed to give my dogs a bath today (I thought about dying parts of their ears red in honor of this dumb holiday), and it was something that did not end up happening, I'll probably end up doing that tomorrow. I like to take the puppies running on the bike path off Truxton, but I like for them to look good when I do that...nobody hits on a girl with nappy dogs. On second thought, maybe I won't give them a bath. I'll have to think about that one.

For Christmas Lauren LaCava (my brother's girlfriend) gave me a book called Captivating: Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman's Soul by John & Staci Eldredge. The book is a tool that women can use to find their inner beauty and make it shine. They rely heavily on the bible and other christian sources as their support, alomost to a point where it seems like they are a little bible-happy, but I like it. The only think is that every time I read it, all I can think is "Boys should read this, too." Boys: if you can't figure a girl out, read this book and you'll get at least halfway to knowing how complex women are. And it will help boys learn how to comfort women in the right way. It says over and over that all a woman wants is to be captivating and pursued. I can honestly say that when I read this book, I'm nodding 95% of the time, saying "yes, this is what I feel, how do they know that?" Pick up a copy and you'll understand from the first page.

Can I just say how happy I am that the writer's strike is OVER?? Curiously, new episodes will be filmed just in time for sweeps month this May. Interesting. I'm just happy that season 4 of LOST will be longer than eight episodes. Plus, I found it hilarious that House, M.D. obviously saved an episode that should have run around Christmastime to play two weeks ago. Just thought I should point that out.

Other than my obvious love of television, it seems to be the only happiness I got today was from my dogs jumping up to me when I got home. Let's hope next year fares better, yeah?

P.S. Now that my hair is brown again,maybe I can actually grow it out and have it be healthy. We'll see how that goes.