Just Thinkin

It seems the boys that actually care about me are the ones I could do without or I'm "just not that into". But the ones that couldn't care any less about me or what's going on in my life are the ones I want to call all the time... I end up being "that girl" - you know, the one who won't leave them alone. Just like I have boys that are "that boy" - the one who won't get the hint. I guess it's karma paying me back for being such a butthead to people by ignoring calls and not calling back.But at least I don't pretend like we'll hang out and then bail. I always have legitimate reasons as to why I can't hang out or won't hang out. I'm only halfway mean. I know I do this to myself and I feel bad for those boys who care and want to be in my life...but I'd feel worse if I pretended to like them the way that boys pretend to like me.I don't think this makes any sense, but I just wanted to say something about the situation I've put myself in. It's my own fault that I grew attatched to basically a stranger, but it just confirms everything I believed about what boys want and what boys like when I was in highschool and all the rumors are true and all boys want one thing and call you a tease when you're just not having it.
so... to all those who want to tell me that I'm better off, we all know that's just a line that never makes you feel better anyway. I'm just pissed right now, and I'm very frustrated and I'm sorry I'm a tease boy.
now I feel like a silly girl. I just wish that things had turned out the way i knew they could have 6 months ago when i was dreaming about someone who turned out to be nothing like I thought, and I wish that some people would just waste their time with me since they are leaving town soon anyway.
But who wants a tease?

Other than this whole stupid boy thing, everything is fine. I'm still wondering why my account at BC is all messed up since I paid my fine, and I have to reg. for classes, so I guess that means I have to actually go down there and/or call and see what the deal is.
I've been working less at Jamba, they're trying to basically scare anyone who isn't "all about Jamba" out of a job. So I actually have to care. Hmmm. I'm thinking I'd rather have a sense of job security. "/

Anyway, my camera magically fixed itself!!!! I turned it one today and it was perfect, I was so happy! Of course, I took some photos just to prove it wasn't broken anymore. Good thing I didn't pay for it to get fixed or get a new one. Cross your fingers for me, hope it stays fixed. I guess it just needed a break.

I'm not sure who reads this, but for whoever does, I don't care to elaborate on the beginning. It's just thoughts and yes I know things will improve. Sometimes you need to vent, and I don't really have the "best friend" anymore to vent to. "/

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