Home again

I'm back in Bakes and regret not taking ANY photos with family whatsoever. I guess I just wasn't in the mood. I did get a haircut and some new clothes... very therapeutic.


My hair is slightly shorter, and that's a new jacket. :)

Anyway, I'm still looking for a job. slowly.

Also, this is how my burn healed for those interested..

Pink scars fade easy peasy.

Here's some interesting news...

I recieved a letter from the IRS this week... I was looking forward to recieving a check and instead, I apparantly owe the government $17,000.00 - and I'm not joking. Oh, with interest, it's something like $17,039.00, but close enough. Wow. I'll get this mistake fixed for sure. I didn't even make that much last year, and I want my tax return!

peace easy.

Vaca

So Sunday night I decided that I really needed to get out of Bakes and clear my head.
I went to Utah.

I am currently staying in my brother's spare room, visiting family, and trying to feel better.
I'll be back in Bakes Sunday night, but I'm not sure if I'll be any better, we will just have to see.

This is much harder than I ever thought it would be.
:(

Update

Ok, so I've been a slacker.
Sorry.


Here's the skinny...

A couple months ago I was making spaghetti [[it was delicious, of course]]. However, when I went to pour the noodles into the colander, I tipped the pot the wrong way and the water splashed up onto my stomach - OUCH. I immediately put the pot aside and ran out to my pool... which I stayed in for about 40 seconds... it made the burn feel better but the rest of my body was freezing. I didn't cry - not for a couple of weeks, when it started to ... ooze?

This photo is about 3 weeks after the fact... yeah it hurt really badly. :(


Now, its just a pink scar that I'm sure will fade. But it was pretty angry for a while - I couldn't even work very much and had to take some painkillers to make it feel better.

In September, I went to the beach with my buddy Eva for the day... it was the most relaxing day of my life.


Halloween was terrible. I HATE Halloween. It's just an excuse to look like a slut and not get made fun of... except I always make fun of the "sexy nurse" and the "sexy ... whatever"

Ran into some friends over that weekend, though.

Shay is a Pageant Girl, I'm pretty sure she won Miss Bakersfield. She's pretty sweet.

Other than that, not a whole lot. I saw WAY to many Jokers over Halloween weekend... I really really dislike faces painted like clowns. You never know what their real expression is. !

Still looking for a job.
peace easy.

The One and Only Prop I Actually Care About

I normally don't care about politics, and I did not vote, but I thought it was important to highlight certain aspects of this statement. Whether you are affiliated with the church or not, I personally believe that people should keep an open mind.

Since Proposition 8 was placed on the ballot in June of this year, the citizens of California have considered the arguments for and against same-sex marriage. After extensive debate between those of different persuasions, voters have chosen to amend the California State Constitution to state that marriage should be between a man and a woman.
Voters in Arizona and Florida took the same course and amended their constitutions to establish that marriage will continue to be between a man and a woman.Such an emotionally charged issue concerning the most personal and cherished aspects of life — family, identity, intimacy and equality — stirs fervent and deep feelings. Most likely, the election results for these constitutional amendments will not mean an end to the debate over same-sex marriage in this country.
We hope that now and in the future all parties involved in this issue will be well informed and act in a spirit of mutual respect and civility toward those with a different position. No one on any side of the question should be vilified, intimidated, harassed or subject to erroneous information.
It is important to understand that this issue for the Church has always been about the sacred and divine institution of marriage — a union between a man and a woman. Allegations of bigotry or persecution made against the Church were and are simply wrong.
The Church’s opposition to same-sex marriage neither constitutes nor condones any kind of hostility toward gays and lesbians. Even more, the Church does not object to rights for same-sex couples regarding hospitalization and medical care, fair housing and employment rights, or probate rights, so long as these do not infringe on the integrity of the traditional family or the constitutional rights of churches.
Some, however, have mistakenly asserted that churches should not ever be involved in politics when moral issues are involved. In fact, churches and religious organizations are well within their constitutional rights to speak out and be engaged in the many moral and ethical problems facing society. While the Church does not endorse candidates or platforms, it does reserve the right to speak out on important issues.
Before it accepted the invitation to join broad-based coalitions for the amendments, the Church knew that some of its members would choose not to support its position. Voting choices by Latter-day Saints, like all other people, are influenced by their own unique experiences and circumstances. As we move forward from the election, Church members need to be understanding and accepting of each other and work together for a better society.Even though the democratic process can be demanding and difficult, Latter-day Saints are profoundly grateful for and respect the ideals of a true democracy.
The Church expresses deep appreciation for the hard work and dedication of the many Latter-day Saints and others who supported the coalitions in efforts regarding these amendments.

(lds.org)

sad

I lost my job this past sunday.

I broke up with my boyfriend this past tuesday.


what a sad week.

starting the job search monday.

won't be starting the boy search for quite a while.
just an update.
hope you are better than I am. "/

happy

I went to the beach this past Tuesday and it was really the most relaxing day I've ever had at the beach...
I don't really like going to the beach in the firstplace, b/c of sticky sea water and messed up hair and sand all over, but me and my friend Eva just laid on the beach and tanned and talked and chilled and it really was the best time I've had at the beach ever.

To make things only better, for about a month now I've been dating someone and it has come to my attention that I seem happy right now. I am, this guy is good to me and very easy for me to talk to. I'm not exactly sure how long this will last, but I do like how things are going and hope they stay this way for a long time. I'm mostly very happy to not be alone anymore. :)

Not doing much else except hanging with Eva and seeing this boy, so there's not much to say. Hope everyone is doing great.

not much

not much has changed in the past month...
I'm still working at Jamba, getting a few more hours lately.
School started but I procrastinated so much that I didn't fix things in time. I know I'm retarded, I know I know I need to be in school... just call me an idiot and move on.
Went to the beach with some friends last weekend, it was a lot of fun.
Other than that, just hanging out.

Better Days

Ok so the whole boy thing (of course) worked out okay. Like I said, I knew it would get better, it would just take a while. It's just sad, boy leaves tomorrow. "/
Work is so dumb right now. I get no slack at all. No leinency, nothing. It's like they expect me to be perfect at all times, 100% there, always super peppy, super excited about all!things!jamba!
I understand why, but do we get any kind of second chance? Usually no. I know I've been there for over a year, but it seems liek they forget I've only been a lead for a month. It's very different than a TM.
Whatever, it will get better too. I just don't konw what I'm going to do with all the time I have on my hands now that evveryone is moving away. "/

Just Thinkin

It seems the boys that actually care about me are the ones I could do without or I'm "just not that into". But the ones that couldn't care any less about me or what's going on in my life are the ones I want to call all the time... I end up being "that girl" - you know, the one who won't leave them alone. Just like I have boys that are "that boy" - the one who won't get the hint. I guess it's karma paying me back for being such a butthead to people by ignoring calls and not calling back.But at least I don't pretend like we'll hang out and then bail. I always have legitimate reasons as to why I can't hang out or won't hang out. I'm only halfway mean. I know I do this to myself and I feel bad for those boys who care and want to be in my life...but I'd feel worse if I pretended to like them the way that boys pretend to like me.I don't think this makes any sense, but I just wanted to say something about the situation I've put myself in. It's my own fault that I grew attatched to basically a stranger, but it just confirms everything I believed about what boys want and what boys like when I was in highschool and all the rumors are true and all boys want one thing and call you a tease when you're just not having it.
so... to all those who want to tell me that I'm better off, we all know that's just a line that never makes you feel better anyway. I'm just pissed right now, and I'm very frustrated and I'm sorry I'm a tease boy.
now I feel like a silly girl. I just wish that things had turned out the way i knew they could have 6 months ago when i was dreaming about someone who turned out to be nothing like I thought, and I wish that some people would just waste their time with me since they are leaving town soon anyway.
But who wants a tease?

Other than this whole stupid boy thing, everything is fine. I'm still wondering why my account at BC is all messed up since I paid my fine, and I have to reg. for classes, so I guess that means I have to actually go down there and/or call and see what the deal is.
I've been working less at Jamba, they're trying to basically scare anyone who isn't "all about Jamba" out of a job. So I actually have to care. Hmmm. I'm thinking I'd rather have a sense of job security. "/

Anyway, my camera magically fixed itself!!!! I turned it one today and it was perfect, I was so happy! Of course, I took some photos just to prove it wasn't broken anymore. Good thing I didn't pay for it to get fixed or get a new one. Cross your fingers for me, hope it stays fixed. I guess it just needed a break.

I'm not sure who reads this, but for whoever does, I don't care to elaborate on the beginning. It's just thoughts and yes I know things will improve. Sometimes you need to vent, and I don't really have the "best friend" anymore to vent to. "/

For those interested...

One year ago

Today

Big Meadow!

So on Thursday (the 3rd) I went camping with my family at wonderful Big Meadow!! It was so nice to get away from town and be in my element. I absolutely ADORE that place and wish I could live there, or wish I could stay there for weeks at a time. I'm thinking about going up there on my own or with some friends to chill. Driving my car, it doesn't cost very much to drive up, and I really need more than one vaca this summer.

But I digress.

Matt came up for the first time in 3 years and we brought his gf Lauren, too!! I (of course) gave her the grand tour....

Matt, Spencer, Me, and Leslie in front of Bog Meadow forever ago.

Me under the Spring, a pipe just stuck in the mountain.
Rock Mountain

Celebrate

When I told my dad I was getting promoted, he told me he would take me out to eat to celebrate.

I held him to that promise and we went to Famous Dave's... it was so good!!

This is Me, Matt, and Lauren

Me and Mateo
The first photo that Me and Lauren have ever taken together.. only took about a year to get it.

Leslie and Me, she's here for the summer.

Family Blog

For those interested...
http://www.the-austin-family.blogspot.com/

Just basically an online version of The Austin Gazette, which I haven't gotten around to publishing for quite a while. We decided the paper format is an annual (meaning every two years) thing.
Enjoy.

Finally!!

Today I had my Lead Class to be promoted!!! My pay raise will officially go through on the 18th, and until then I'llbe running practice shifts as a Manager in Charge!! I'm so happy that this finally happened, and only hope I can do the job as well I think I can.

Not much else is going on, I'm not in school this summer, so I'm totally free when I'm not working, which is nice to be able to sleep and to just plain relax.

I'm working on getting a routine of at least playing tennis at the ball wall, so let's see how I do with that.

In a couple of weeks I'll be playing in a little group of people at some church thing, and today I pulled out my violin for the first time since christmas... my arm was really sore when I was done practicing (which I usually never do!) but I was glad that I got the hang of how the songs were supposed to sound, usually I need someone who already knows the piece to be playing alongside me and show me how it's done.. so yay me.

Anyway, here is a current photo of me for those interested... have a nice week!

Work Out//No Use

ok so recently more than one person has told me that I don't have any upper-body strength due to lack of muscles in my arms.

So I played tennis today at the ball wall over at Jastro Park and my arm is sore but I'm proud of myself for still having some kind of form when it comes to tennis. I haven't played in months and months, not since like last summer. But today was perfect, the weather could not have been more agreeable, and I really needed something productive to do.

So, to anyone in Bakes who wants to play, now that I'm not in school, I'm down anytime I'm not working. Leslie & Keith play, too, let's make it a doubles tourney. ;)

Also, Can I just say how much I absolutely LOVE No Use's new album: "The Feel Good Record of the Year"??

My brother dl it for me and the only problem I have with listening to it is I can't sing along yet b/c I don't know the words. I love how they've reverted back to their old sound, the first few are more like Making Friends, one of their old albums. Then they go on to give you surprise after surprise. I love this album, it's going to be in my CD player for quite a while. :)

little boy

Sharol, Max, Andrew, & Ryan came over a couple times last week to swim, and can I just say that it amazes me how much Andrew grows up in just a week?
Every week they come over for Sunday dinner, and every week it's something new. I know that my sister sees him every day and notices these changes, but for me, it's like, "a week ago Andrew was NOT speaking in sentences." I just find it very interesting how fast kids really do grow. Makes me very excited to have some of my own... (not excited for lack of sleep or discipline, but you get the idea).

Work is work. I like my job a lot, and I'm looking forward to being promoted FINALLY.

Leslie & Keith are here! Yes, we DID play Risk, and declared Keith the winner when it got pretty late. score one for Keith, but he should be expecting a re-match.

Looks like I will be going to Utah for a visit sometime in September... these plans are tentative and yes, very much planned ahead, but I just thought my Utah friends might like to know that. :)

My camera is broken, or I would have some kind of documentation of my life. It won't quit zooming in; i have to take it to get fixed but I'm lazy.

I'm still debating school this summer. I need to catch up, but I also feel like maybe it's time for a break, even after only one semester. Although I feel like I have nothing to do, school just stressed me out a lot, and it shows. There were a lot of things going on this semester, I was super busy. I'm thinking about joining the gym Lauren L. goes to and taking some kind of yoga or pilates class or something... free tanning, etc. It would give me something to do over summer.
Any suggestions for ways to keep busybusy are welcome.
<3

Currently Listening to: Awake Live by Josh Groban <-- this guys is amazing live, just as he is recorded. I happened to catch him on Jay Leno last night and he is ahhhhhmazzingggg.

Summmmmmmerrrr

School is OUT.
yesssa finally I can rest.
Ok i know BC isn't that hard, but I wasn't in school for like a year and a half, AND, when I was in hs, I NEVER did my homework, so that was a huge change for me. I finished out with straight B's, so congratulations to ME.

Friends... omg, I do not even want to talk about the stupid choices and drama lately. I'm so past this highschool stupidity.

I did just re-connect with some old friends, however. That was very nice and completely random... it just proves how small Bakes is.

Leslie & Keith are moving to Bakes for the summer!! yes, now I finally have someone to play Risk with... I bought it a few days ago just hoping that Matt would challenge me, but that was a no bueno plan for him. His excuse is that he hasn't played in forever. Neither have I, but I am willing to take him on (Little People, Big World is having some kind of effect on me, I guess).

Work... oh well, it's just work. I'm getting promoted NEXT month, or so they say. I'll most likely be saying that a year from now... but the class is on June 7 I think, so keep your fingers crossed. Let's just hope I can keep my tone of voice & attitude in check. (pfft!)

I heard from a little bird that 5th ward needs an adult leader for camp.... It just so happens that I have a few days open the week of girls' camp and absolutely LOVE Big Meadow.... so maybe my phone will be ringing soon. ;)

Anyway, that's all for now. No updates on stupid friend drama. I don't want to talk about it, it does not make me happy.

Until whenever... Happy reading.

update

this weekend gave me a lot of things to think about this week..

My bother's girldfriend Lauren made dinner for the family on Sunday and of course it was a hit. I'll post to recipe for the Stromboli when I have time, but until then, to make everyone jealous, here's who I get to play with every sunday.

I'm jealous that Sharol gets to spend every day with the cutest kid in the world. *sigh*

That's it for me for now, I have to go to school and not learn.

no bueno

The internet is starting to become only vaguely interesting to me

It's such a waste of my time.


I'll be around.






Currently Listening to "A Rush of Blood to the Head" by Coldplay

photos..

For laura... my hair and some of my favorite clothes.. I wear yellow a lot. :)

I was having a no bueno week but the more that I got things done today, the better I felt.

I worked in the am and when I got home, I washed my car, did laundry, cleaned out my fish tank (finally!!), played with my nephew Andrew, and took a shower.. nice. I'm feeling better. I hope it stays.

have a good week!

chillax

I've been kindof busy lately, but I wanted to update just a little..

Wednesday I went to Institute, I had a really good day that day for reasons I don't want to say... it's too cliche and cheesy. :) but it was nice.
Thursday was the "Office Party" at Mikes.. fun fun. We went in the spa and then of course watched the office. I had fun.
Friday was the tri-stake activity at the Pin Oak Park Bldg. There was just chillin and basketball going on.. not bad. It was fun, too. Then Jesse and David came over and we went swimming.. or they did. I stayed in the spa cause I wasn't about to waste a shower.
Saturday I had to close but Grayson, Jesse, and David came into work to see me and score free smoothies. I was very happy to see them because a lot of the time people say they will come in and then never show. So it made me happy they came by. After work I went to Grayson's and watched Nacho Libre.. hilarious still.
Today I spent a lot of time with Lauren,, cause we haven't hung out in a little while. Then I watched Eragon at the Peel's... that was a nice break.
Tomorrow is back to the grind.. work early, school late... I only hope I get enough sleep this week so I don't end up passing out at 6pm like last Tuesday... that was no bueno.

The double J is going better. I'm taking a class next month to be promoted finalllllllllllyyyyyy. It only took like 10 years. I'm very excited and just ready to get the recognition.. i mean I already practically do the job. I just have my own keys.

okay I think that's all I've done lately... I've been busy. I'm sure it will slow down....I can't stay up late usually. love.love.

Tagged...

Thank you Leslie...

What were you doing 5 Years Ago?
1)April 2003... I was a freshman at West high, doing swimming and flirting with boys.

What are 5 Things On Your To-do List Today:
1) drive home
2) finally check my email etc.
3) eat dinner with the fam
4) take a shower
5) read

Name 5 Snacks That You Enjoy:
1) triscuits
2) oyster crackers
3) frozen red grapes
4) pretzel sticks
5) cookies

Name 3 Bad Habits You Have:
1) excessive sarcasm
2) staying out late even when I have work at 5 am the next day
3) procrastinating my homework

If you were a billionaire...
1) pay off my car
2) buy my parents house and kick them out (just kidding, I'd let them stay...in the shed)
3) buy some clothes
4) Go to europe
5) get a new computer
6) pay for college

List 5 places You've Lived:
1) Bakersfield, CA
2) Provo, UT
3)
4)
5)

List 5 Jobs That You've Had
1) My dad's office, "file clerk"
2) Little Caeser's - Assistant to the Manager
3) Macey's - Deli Clerk
4) MDS Communications - Communications Specialist Trainee
5) Jamba Juice - Training Mentor

List 5 Things That People Don't Know About You:
1) When I have a crush on someone, its lasts for years, not months... weird
2) I don't like to paint my toenails.
3) I used to bite my nails when I was bored, but stopped when I went to Europe the first time - I was never bored.
4) I could quote the office or movies all day long, and still think it's hilarious
5) I spend a ridiculous amount of time organizing my iTunes. It has to be perfect.


I tag Sara Seaney, Heather Jackman, Courtney Urmston, and Stefanie Ray.

For Just a Minute...

Let's pretend I can actually believe this and try to apply it to my life, yeah?

"He may live in my memory as the most amiable man of my aquaintance, but that is all. I have nothing either to hope or fear, and nothing to reproach him with. Thank God! I have not that pain. A little time therefore. ---I shall certainly try to get the better.
"I have this comfort immediately, that it has not been more than an error of fancy on my side, and that it has done no harm to any one but myself."

-Jane to Elizabeth (Pride & Prejudice)

If I can try to really believe this the was Jane makes herself believe that Mr. Bingley is nothing more than a very amiable man who is simply "not that into her," then maybe I can live my life without all the fuss. (I understand that she turned out to be wrong, but the idea is still the same.)

What's been going on? A little bit. This past Tuesday was Jesse's birthday.. Monday night after school I rushed to Lauren's to have her teach me how to shade so that I could make a card for him. It took forever but was very nice looking. (He loved it, DUH)

Work is okay, it gets harder not to be mad every day, but I'm really working on the sarcasm issue, especially since we have like 6 or 7 new people, and I'm tired of coming off as a jerk. It's just the way I am.

Friday, danced at Jayde's house. Grayson taught me how to waltz. It's my new favorite dance. And I had a lot fun, which isn't normal when it comes to dancing.

Yesterday, I went to Venice Beach with Lauren, Carrie, and Haleigh. We laid out for a while (yes, I got sunburned), then walked along the boardwalk and looked at all the crazy weirdos. I will say that, as different as the actual beach is from Venice, Italy, the fact that there are a million trinket stands for tourists is the same. Go to Italy and you'll see what I mean. They are EVERYWHERE in any major city... Venice, Rome, Pisa, etc.
After the beach, we went to Lauren's Cabin in Frasier Park.. it was superfun. We watched movies and played cards, and Lauren's friend Jackie came up.. total girls night. It was wonderful.
Then back to reality right? *sigh*

p.s. they always "more money, more problems" but in my experience it's more like, "LESS money, even more problems."

"/

Just wanted to post my favorite photo...sometimes I miss blonde hair... and Kassy. :(

Question...

K when I'm really sleepy or when it's late at night, or when I've been sleeping and wake up and have to drive home or something, music that I know is supposed to be slow seems to go really fast... is this just me? Is it just my head trying real hard to catch up to the beat? I get o confused, and I'm all like, "This song is supposed to be waaay slower."
I was just wondering.
any answers?

Clarity

Currently listening to: "Riot!" by Paramore
I will always think that it is interesting how life really does go on when you think it can't get worse, or it's over for you, etc. You wake up the next day and it's almost like your so-called problems don't matter. Yes, they are still there, but they aren't in the forefront anymore, like they were when you went to sleep. In my opinion, the only problems worth really worrying about are the ones that still bother you when you wake up the next day. So, yes, I felt lost. Yes, I do feel a little cheated in this thing we call life. But I am not going to let it bother me like it did the other day. That just gives life the kind of satisfaction that I don't want it to have, and it lets people know who I'm thinking about, and I don't really want that broadcasted to the world. And blogs aside, I have trouble hiding my thoughts, so I better be careful.

All that aside, everything is good. I dyed my hair blonde just a little by my ear like I dyed it pink when my hair was blonde. (Does that makes sense? Oh well) And I hang out with Grayson a lot, but that's all. Spring break is over and it's back to school tomorrow. Did I do my homework? no. What am I doing instead? this. I guess it's homework time.
<3

Boys?

I'm so... lost.


I just feel like I have no direction and I don't like being stressed out about something that probably will not ever happen.

I want this to either begin or be over already.

Because i don't like feeling so unimportant. I need to be pursued.

Tired Much?

Currently listening to: Schindler's List Soundtrack
(This blog is from Thursday, but it wouldn't let me post.)
I have been ridiculously busy for the past few weeks. There are just so many things for me to do, apparantly. Oh, by the way, I got a speeding ticket on my way to Utah. Worth it? I'm not sure.


The Double J 368 (Marketplace)

Work has been great! I'm training this new guy named Logan who I actually trained with at MDS last year. Obviously, we had the same opinion of that job haha. I've been working so much it's ridiculous. I wonder if my dad realizes I work more now that I'm school than I did before... probably not, which is why he's still on my case most of the time. But whatever, I'm making more now that my pay rate is all worked out :)


Renegades (BC)

Today I drove out to BC three times to try and get a hold of a professor to help me with the block on my school account. It's all worked out so that I can do research, but its still messed up. I'll have to work out the rest after spring break. I've been going out there on my "days off" to go to these dumb workshops... and I tried so hard to get there on time today but was 2 minutes late and the class was filled..... oh well. There's not much I can do about that. Other than that, I've been acing all my math tests, probably because I'vealready taken this level of math twice when I was in highschool. But I like that it's easy, I just get annoyed when people in class ask questions with obvious answers.


Good Day?
oh em gee I've been falling asleep at the most random times lately. Usually when I'm in math I do the homework while she's lecturing owing to the fact that I already know how to do everything, and if I can't remember how to do it, I just read the book. However, on Monday I totally fell asleep in class and felt really bad because I sit really close to the front. I don't know if she noticed, but she didn't say anything about it. The only bad part about that was that I had to do my homework on Tuesday instead of during class... and I fell asleep while doing that. I guess I need to be in a really uncomfortable position when I'm trying to do my homework. I've been doing that a lot lately, falling asleep for no reason... okay, maybe it's because I get up at four in the am every day, but other than that, I mean, come on.
Grayson came home last week!! We've been hanging out pretty regularly. Last Thursday Courtney came into town and I picked her up fromt he airport. Grayson, Jesse, Courtney, and I went to Rosemary's that night, that was nostalgic. The only difference now is I'm not a huge fan of ice cream, so it's not ideal. But we had fun for sure. Last weekend was good. I miss having all my friends in town. But I'm glad that some of them are back. :)
Other than that, there's not much else I can think of. My "busy" days consist of errands I won't bore you with detailing. If I think of anything else, I'll edit for sure.
Have a good day all you bloggers and snoopers!

Leaving

Currently Listening to: "There For You" by Flyleaf (Her song to me? It should be.)
<-- Matt, Me, Leslie, and Spencer at Big Meadow circa 1994... ish. They've moved the sign since then.

So tomorrow I leave for Utah!! I was supposed to be already on the road today, but I have this stupid library workshop that I have to go to for my english class at 3:10 pm. How lame. I could have been already on my way.

The Double J 368 (Marketplace)
Work was long today. We just launched this new breakfast campaign with chunky yogurt blend smoothies with granola and eight new baked goods. It wasn't busy, so time passed slowly. I'm excited about our new stuff. Later this year we're getting ovens and we'll be serving hot=pocket type breakfast sandwiches.

Renegade (BC)
School today at 3... but only for an hour. Then I get to come home and pack, clean my carpet, wash my sheets, make my bed, and get everything ready so I can just drive straight through without stopping except for gas tomorrow. I better download some new stuff.

Good Day?
So far, it's been a good week if you count Saturday. I went to Institute last night, chatted a little with Jesse, then went to work to help set up the menuboard. Brother Williams is an exceptional teacher, and even though he talked about marriage and love, I forgive him. I'm excited to go every week!

Anyway, that's all, just wanted to update a little. I know, it's so exciting.
just do it with love. love. love. love.

Good day

Currently Listening to: "All The Best Songs" by No Use For A Name
<-- my hair was effing CRAZY last night.. Lauren did a faux hawk for me haha. We went to Capistranos for my brother Matt's birthday dinner. His birthday is tomorrow and he's turning 25.

Today.... Wow for the first time in a long time I had a really truly genuinely good day.

The Double J 368 (Marketplace)
Work was superfun, I opened with Berto for the first time and our open was fast and quick and just chillaxed... I loved it! our morning krew was really fun too... i just had a good time for once. Even though our computers were down, Berto made it not a big deal and we weren't all stressed about it like we can be sometimes. The music was awesome today too haha.

Renegades (BC)
I'm pretty sure I bombed my English test on Wednesday considering I didn't read the book. oops.

Good Day?
heck yes it was. After work I came home to find that Jason was still in town. My brother went to work but Jason stayed behind and hung out with me for a few hours. Ahh it was just so great to be able to hang out with a friend and just do nothing. I made him some food and he took off because he had to drive back hom but it was a very good day for me.


I hope more days like this come around.

The Lowdown

Good times, for sure for sure.
Hung out with Jason last night - that was pretty sweeeeet. I appreciate the comfortable atmosphere that I don't always have around boys who spark my interest. Usually I get nervous or just don't know what to sayor don't want to look even more stupid or something, but with some people, the idea that probably nothing will happen makes it easy to let my insecurities go. Last night was great... and so was LOST!!!


In other news...
I really don't know what she expects me to say or do.
I really don't.
I thought people would know by now I'm not the kind of preson who forgets how she was treated. Or forgives that behavior a year later. It's not like I'm holding a grudge or anything, because I'm not, I'm just saying that just because time has passed doesn't meant that either of us has changed enough. Maybe it was all in my head, but that doesn't mean that the blame should have been placed on me when I tried to work it out. Nothing has changed. I don't think it will ever be good again. And I hope that this doesn't start some like spiritual awakening or something because the last thing I need is to be preached to.
random.

oh well. Life is lemons, man.




kind of want some lemonade...

Rundown

Currently Listening to: "so long, astoria" by The Ataris

<-- Macey's uniform (approx. Feb. 2007) Oh em gee. It's been a busy few days even without school. I feel like I've been all over the place. Currently I'm trying to make plans with Courtney to make sure she's coming down in March when Grayson comes home. It's a big mess but I'm confident it will all work out. I'm also trying to get everything to together so that I can go to Utah on the 28th. My boss Chyron from Macey's is getting married!! I'm going up on Thursday the 28th after work, going to Salt Lake on Friday to hang with Courtney, then on staurday is her reception. I drive back on Sunday, the 2nd. Busy weekend for sure.

Double J 368 (Marketplace)
Work was so busy yesterday. I was scheduled from 5:30 am to 12 pm but it was so busy I didn't get out until 2pm. It's great because that way I actually got a full eight hours. I love it when it's busy because time goes by really fast and you kind of get "in the mode" when it's busy, you're working your one area and getting a rhythm down... pretty sweet. I got paid today, wahoo. I'm saving most of it for my trip to Utah... I'm hoping to pick up a shift while I'm there so I don't lose too many hours.
My promotion to Team Leader has been pushed back... a couple of months more and it will happen.


Renegade (BC)
So I'm supposed to be reading Fahrenheit 451 and I have a quiz on it tomorrow... oops, I haven't bought the book yet because of lack of funds. Can you guess who's reading sparknotes tonight? But other than that, I already did my math homework in class. It's so effing easy peasy.


Good Day?
Yessa today I'm going swimming at McMurtrey with West. I'm very excited but nervous that I'm not in swimming shape. oops. I think it will be fun, I always loved swimming in highschool. I just wish Father Jim would let me dive again, that would be so awesome. But he doesn't like me enough. "/ If I were Olympic material like Sam, he for sure would, but I'm not that awesome. I miss diving.
By the way, I finally gave my dogs a bath, and not soon enough, I think they had fleas. I was pretty itchy on Friday.
Yesterday I went to Rosemary's..... mmmm. Everyone was going to a movie but I didn't go, I had work too early. I was falling asleep on my way home. It's like an internal alarm clock telling me it's nine or ten at night. I used to make fun of Courtney because she would do that... guess that's my bad.


I'm tired. And there's nothing else.

Busy

Currently Listening to: "No, Really, I'm Fine" by The Spill Canvas
Right now my life has been very busy. It's been really hard to get used to after only just working all the time. Now that I'm going to BC two nights a week, I find it so much easier to fall asleep no matter where I am (even driving...oops). I never took naps because I'd get bored before I fell asleep, but now that my schedule is more full, naps are welcome. I'm also Branch Music Coordinator for the Kern River Branch, and even though it's not that hard, it's still something I'm constantly thinking about, trying to remember to call people (which I hate to do) and tell them their assignments. It makes me laugh sometimes to think I was ever a telemarketer, but I was.


The Double J 368 (Marketplace)
I usually go to work around 5:30 am. Right now I'm a Training Mentor, which is one step above Team Member. Soon I'll be promoted to Team Leader and recieve another raise and more responsibility. Recently the store has been pretty busy in the afternoons after I leave because the weather has been so favorable, but in the mornings we have a core group of "regulars" who come in every day. Other than that, we can for almost an hour without anyone coming in. Gives me time to do the daily sudoku in the paper. Wahoo. I'm getting pretty awesome at that game.

Renegade (BC)
After work I go straight to school from 1pm to somewhere around 8 or 8:30 pm. I'm taking English B1A, Math D (Intermediate Algebra), and Physical Geography. My English professor told me on Monday that I was the only one who didn't have to re-write my diagnostic essay and that she's looking forward to reading what I write this semester. (yay!) My Math class is way easy, and my professor's lectures are so all-over-the-place that I end up doing my homework while she's talking. Physical Geography is way interesting but a lot of memorization and I've always been bad at studying. "/

After school, if I get out early enough, I head to McMurtrey Aquatic and swim with the West High swim team. If not, I go home and eat some delicious soup and sit down for some much-needed downtime.

Good Day?
Today was Valentine's Day, and I was not a happy camper. I was late for my eye appointment because I (of course) fell asleep. Even though I actually had a day off for once in my life, I still had so many other things I wanted to do that didn't seem to get done. But I did make sugar cookies for my brother and his girlfriend, Lauren. They were extra delicious. But other than that, with my parents being in Park City, UT skiing, I was alone all day. It was hard.

Since I was supposed to give my dogs a bath today (I thought about dying parts of their ears red in honor of this dumb holiday), and it was something that did not end up happening, I'll probably end up doing that tomorrow. I like to take the puppies running on the bike path off Truxton, but I like for them to look good when I do that...nobody hits on a girl with nappy dogs. On second thought, maybe I won't give them a bath. I'll have to think about that one.

For Christmas Lauren LaCava (my brother's girlfriend) gave me a book called Captivating: Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman's Soul by John & Staci Eldredge. The book is a tool that women can use to find their inner beauty and make it shine. They rely heavily on the bible and other christian sources as their support, alomost to a point where it seems like they are a little bible-happy, but I like it. The only think is that every time I read it, all I can think is "Boys should read this, too." Boys: if you can't figure a girl out, read this book and you'll get at least halfway to knowing how complex women are. And it will help boys learn how to comfort women in the right way. It says over and over that all a woman wants is to be captivating and pursued. I can honestly say that when I read this book, I'm nodding 95% of the time, saying "yes, this is what I feel, how do they know that?" Pick up a copy and you'll understand from the first page.

Can I just say how happy I am that the writer's strike is OVER?? Curiously, new episodes will be filmed just in time for sweeps month this May. Interesting. I'm just happy that season 4 of LOST will be longer than eight episodes. Plus, I found it hilarious that House, M.D. obviously saved an episode that should have run around Christmastime to play two weeks ago. Just thought I should point that out.

Other than my obvious love of television, it seems to be the only happiness I got today was from my dogs jumping up to me when I got home. Let's hope next year fares better, yeah?

P.S. Now that my hair is brown again,maybe I can actually grow it out and have it be healthy. We'll see how that goes.